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Monday, April 30, 2012

All real change happens at once.

I'm sorry for being late on updating you with all the most wonderful magic happening in my little Universe.
Five years ago this August I went to the shelter with my baby girl. Today, I am officially a shopkeeper at an upscale boutique downtown Ann Arbor. The way it all came about is nothing more than pure luck, reaching out and never giving up.

My most wonderful problem today is trying to figure out how to explain to the public housing authority that someone like me, high potential but low income can own a shop on a busy street downtown with no money of my own.

I will fill the three of you in on the details next time. But, for now just know that whatever it is you want in your life really can come true, it takes effort but that's cumulative effort over the period of your life. So, it does not take that much effort if you stay present and ask or tell someone what your wishes are. And then you just take the most baby of steps towards your wishes. Always be grateful for what is presented to you. Be aware, and apologize when necessary. But don't overdo the apologizing, true friends will tell you there's no need for it.

Five years ago while in the shelter I told everyone, "I am a success story!"
Five years ago, I told my (now) wonderful 3rd and final husband I wanted music in my life again. Boy, do I ever have music.

I never knew what it felt like to win the proverbial lottery until now. For me, I have been crying tears of joy. But, just between us it's really tears of survival. What I learned so far after taking a major leap of faith and going after what I felt I deserved is that, yes I indeed deserve to be treated so much better. The Universe is giving me that treatment. Thank you.

Love,
   -me

P.S...    I say it's the Law of Attraction, but my Jesse Sinatra says, "It's the Law of Tanya's Attraction!"

Saturday, February 04, 2012

Multiple Personalities can be GOOD

12 August 2011
As my wonderful hubby and I took our walk this morning, I could not help but notice how much more vibrant the sky, trees, flowers, fountains, ponds and sounds of nature were!

We kept up a nice athletic stride, and reflected, laughed and reveled about our life together and last night’s SPECTACULAR evening!

We were invited as special guests to a Gala event.  It was the opening ceremony for the 33rd annual Ypsilanti Heritage Festival at the Yankee Air Museum.  What a place!

At least 300 people were there, photographers snapping shots of us, glass flutes of champagne pouring, dozens of caterers offering sophisticated hors d'oeuvres, new friends, dear friends, and even the mayor; (who ego wants to be acknowledged here) asked "me" if he could take my picture just before I was going to ask him!  hehe

As we walked along the pond, hubby and I were greeted by hearty bull frogs and riveting locusts vibrating through the trees. We have walked this path many times, but today was brand new. "How did we get here?"  Just 6 years ago I was a new mom, severely depressed, lonely, and could never had imagined how happy and wonderful my life is today.

Back then I was "Spygrrl", my online alter ego. When I could not take care of myself she would step in and take charge. She is the one who ultimately got me into the domestic violence shelter with my baby and out of a traumatic 2nd marriage.

But who got me "here"  today?

Unbeknownst to me, it was my long lost retired alter ego from 20 years ago, "Safety Girl”. She took over for me when I was a single teen mom. She created a business and eventually an underground cult show on public access T.V. for safer sex.

After the shelter, living out of my car and on friends couches with my baby girl and finally in a transitional apartment, living in the "meantime" while in a heated 4 year custody battle, "Ypsigirl" was born.

I became a pink haired, tutu wearing woman about town on public access T.V. who, eventually fell in love again and married "Safety Girl's" camera man, "Spygrrls" staunch loyal friend, my wedding singer, MY Jesse Sinatra.

Last night it wasn't Safety Girl at the gala, and it was not her walking with my new Sinatra singer husband, who crewed on Safety Girls show and sang at both of her previous weddings.

Today, yesterday, 6 years and 20 years ago it was "me", Tanya. The woman in front of all my alter egos who got us to this event. The woman who created  Spygrrl, Safety Girl, YpsiGirl, and my newest personality, who helped me shed 50lbs"Ms. Baggypants."

On today's walk, I learned that it IS MY "personality" that got me here. I have never felt more satisfied with all the choices I've made over the past 20 years. As Tom Robbins says “It’s never too late to have a happy childhood.” And to think, I say this living on a fixed income with my beautiful 5 year old daughter and dear sweet loving wedding singer Vietnam era veteran Husband!!! Last night was WONDERFUL, but waking up today next to Jesse was even better!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Happy 2012 my Curious readers!!! I'm back.

After much thought, I decided why in the world would I want to retire this personal blog of mine? I kind of feel like Jay Leno. I thought being on a new chapter meant I needed to retire the “old” me. But since my last post, I have more exciting news and I feel compelled to nurture my baby blog, to share and continue from where I left off.

The Law of attraction has been very good to me. Looking back at previous posts through the years, I am just so amazed at how much I wanted to happen in my life actually has become MY reality!

I started this blog in 2008.

Back then, I was a WREAK! Depressed, heart broken, lost, 50lbs over weight and grieving my 2nd divorce. I was desperate to make some sort of a life for my one year old baby girl and myself.

Four years ago I decided to take on my own LoA challenge, and blog about it. I can honestly say It WORKS and keeps on working... even if you decide to retire your blog about it. (grin) The LoA does NOT rest.

So, I'm back because I want you to know that no matter where you are in life, you are a success story! I literally went from living in a shelter with my baby, no money, no job, going through a traumatic 4 year custody battle in which I had to endure horrific character assassinations in court- to getting back on television, winning awards, even the 2011 community spirit award through the city of Ann Arbor, MI (CTN) to where I am right now.

I have my own office cubical in a corporate business. And I get to do what I love and get paid for completed projects. I even get an advancement while I learn the ropes. It's small, but it is SOMETHING! I was offered a grand opportunity and I seized it! It might take time for the financial benefits to come into existence, but I can't help but to feel this overwhelming sense of being in the right place at the right time!

I am on the lookout for guest blog post's, contact me if you think my blog is a good fit.
Allow your Bliss,
-tanya

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