A week ago I gave up my packed storage unit for a few bones.
Days following were hard for me; I began to see some personal belongings showing up on craigslist.
For several days I felt anxious and uncertain about this decision.
“what if” moments crept into my thoughts.
“What if I left something behind that I wish I would not have?”
“What if something was worth a lot of money?”
“What if…this and what if that?”
You know what? There are no more “What ifs”.
By unloading twenty years of my past I am now at a point where I feel anything is possible.
Starting over is not easy after divorce. It has taken me two years to finally feel free and to embrace the beauty and magic of letting go of my past while at the same time starting my life over from scratch.
Not knowing what is going to happen next. Not owning a home or material possessions. Not knowing how I will survive financially next month. Not knowing what job interview will be “the one”…
For some odd reason, I’m ok with all the not knowing-
What I know for sure is so much more pungent- Like the stench of Limburger cheese.
I know by the smell of it that it will taste horrible, but there is excitement in finding out, my curiosity with not knowing forces me to sink in and see for myself.
There is something hidden under that wrapper, something that I have never before experienced, and no matter how bad it stinks I will live to tell about it.
So I take the plunge, let go of my fears and to my surprise I find that I have more experience, more wisdom, and more lessons in my life than ever before-
I’m indeed living to tell about it, and it’s pungently priceless… a taste of emotional freedom.
Heavy burdens lifted, my present moment is not getting to the finish line, and I have nothing holding me back anymore.
All I have now is an overwhelming sense of how exciting it is to not know, and leave it at that!
35 comments:
Way to go! I need to get rid of some stuff too. I just don't know where I'd start.
Good on you. Your time and freedom of mind are worth the most :)
What a priceless sense of freedom! Congratulations!
That must have been hard to go through, but you did it! Congrats!!
Congrats on your freedom! You are gonna make it...
You have taken the biggest step and you are gonna love your new life. No baggage, just a new world is coming once you open the door!
You made a good decision! I couldn't have looked on Craigslist. Seeing my stuff would have been too much for me.
It is amazing to know how much good someone else gets out of our old stuff.
There will always be the "what if" stage...but you did a good thing. Congratulations!
Your post here and your smiles with your daughter say it all. Here's to your new beginnings!
Good for you! It would be so hard to get rid of so many things, but I think it will help you move on.
Just stopping by to say "Hi" and best of luck on your new journey!
Stopping by to see how you're doing!
Bless you girl! I remember when I read about when you were selling it. I knew then it might have been tough for you. It would be for me! Especially if I knew there were things in there that might be sentimental or private or sensitive without an enventory of it all anyway. But life is about making decisions and living with the results. You just have to make the best of what you have and be greatful. But it's sure good to let go and get rid of baggage. Hope you are doing well. Swing by!
Mkcoy
Just stopping by to say "Hi" and best of luck on your new daily adventures!
Hope all is going well for you!
Passing through with comment exchange.
Hope you are doing well
Hiow are things going? We need updates! :)
Just stopping by to say "Hi." Let us know how you are doing!
Your doing great and things will only get better for you, best of luck.
Hi Tanya.
I saw your post listed for today on the Comment Exchange and wanted to get over to see you.
I enjoyed reading this latest chapter in your saga. Sounds like a victory for you, so congratulations.
I look forward to seeing you around.
While painful, I will say that from a feng shui point of view, clearing the clutter and starting at THIS moment can be so refreshing and invigorating! Good for you!
We have to let go of the past to properly embrace the future. Good job!
So what's up? Ready to read about the next chapter in your life!
Hope to hear how things are going for you...soon!
Back again.
Waiting for the next installment. :)
Stopped by to see what's new... you must be busy :)
It's hard to let go at times, but sometimes it does you good. A fresh start.
Just stopping by...looking for some new content.
Hope to hear how things are going for you!
Hope things are going well.
Stopping in to say "Hi"!
Nothing new, were are you hun?
Any news?
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