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Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Storage Smile's



A week ago I gave up my packed storage unit for a few bones.
Days following were hard for me; I began to see some personal belongings showing up on craigslist.
For several days I felt anxious and uncertain about this decision.
“what if” moments crept into my thoughts.
What if I left something behind that I wish I would not have?”
“What if something was worth a lot of money?”
“What if…this and what if that?”
You know what? There are no more “What ifs”.
By unloading twenty years of my past I am now at a point where I feel anything is possible.
Starting over is not easy after divorce. It has taken me two years to finally feel free and to embrace the beauty and magic of letting go of my past while at the same time starting my life over from scratch.
Not knowing what is going to happen next. Not owning a home or material possessions. Not knowing how I will survive financially next month. Not knowing what job interview will be “the one”…
For some odd reason, I’m ok with all the not knowing-
What I know for sure is so much more pungent- Like the stench of Limburger cheese.
I know by the smell of it that it will taste horrible, but there is excitement in finding out, my curiosity with not knowing forces me to sink in and see for myself.
There is something hidden under that wrapper, something that I have never before experienced, and no matter how bad it stinks I will live to tell about it.
So I take the plunge, let go of my fears and to my surprise I find that I have more experience, more wisdom, and more lessons in my life than ever before-
I’m indeed living to tell about it, and it’s pungently priceless… a taste of emotional freedom.
Heavy burdens lifted, my present moment is not getting to the finish line, and I have nothing holding me back anymore.
All I have now is an overwhelming sense of how exciting it is to not know, and leave it at that!

35 comments:

Karen said...

Way to go! I need to get rid of some stuff too. I just don't know where I'd start.

Emily Veinglory: said...

Good on you. Your time and freedom of mind are worth the most :)

Barbara Rae said...

What a priceless sense of freedom! Congratulations!

ConnieFoggles said...

That must have been hard to go through, but you did it! Congrats!!

ALS of Nevada said...

Congrats on your freedom! You are gonna make it...

Linda said...

You have taken the biggest step and you are gonna love your new life. No baggage, just a new world is coming once you open the door!

corrin said...

You made a good decision! I couldn't have looked on Craigslist. Seeing my stuff would have been too much for me.

Karen said...

It is amazing to know how much good someone else gets out of our old stuff.

Maureen said...

There will always be the "what if" stage...but you did a good thing. Congratulations!

Barbara Rae said...

Your post here and your smiles with your daughter say it all. Here's to your new beginnings!

Cady said...

Good for you! It would be so hard to get rid of so many things, but I think it will help you move on.

Barbara Rae said...

Just stopping by to say "Hi" and best of luck on your new journey!

corrin said...

Stopping by to see how you're doing!

Mkcoy said...

Bless you girl! I remember when I read about when you were selling it. I knew then it might have been tough for you. It would be for me! Especially if I knew there were things in there that might be sentimental or private or sensitive without an enventory of it all anyway. But life is about making decisions and living with the results. You just have to make the best of what you have and be greatful. But it's sure good to let go and get rid of baggage. Hope you are doing well. Swing by!

Mkcoy

Barbara Rae said...

Just stopping by to say "Hi" and best of luck on your new daily adventures!

Barbara said...

Hope all is going well for you!

Karen said...

Passing through with comment exchange.

Maureen said...

Hope you are doing well

Emily Veinglory: said...

Hiow are things going? We need updates! :)

Barbara Rae said...

Just stopping by to say "Hi." Let us know how you are doing!

Caroline said...

Your doing great and things will only get better for you, best of luck.

Brad said...

Hi Tanya.

I saw your post listed for today on the Comment Exchange and wanted to get over to see you.

I enjoyed reading this latest chapter in your saga. Sounds like a victory for you, so congratulations.

I look forward to seeing you around.

Diane Scott said...

While painful, I will say that from a feng shui point of view, clearing the clutter and starting at THIS moment can be so refreshing and invigorating! Good for you!

Law of Attraction Lover said...

We have to let go of the past to properly embrace the future. Good job!

ConnieFoggles said...

So what's up? Ready to read about the next chapter in your life!

Barbara Rae said...

Hope to hear how things are going for you...soon!

Brad said...

Back again.

Waiting for the next installment. :)

Diane Scott said...

Stopped by to see what's new... you must be busy :)

A. @ A Changing Life said...

It's hard to let go at times, but sometimes it does you good. A fresh start.

Karen said...

Just stopping by...looking for some new content.

Barbara Rae said...

Hope to hear how things are going for you!

Cady said...

Hope things are going well.

Barbara Rae said...

Stopping in to say "Hi"!

Caroline said...

Nothing new, were are you hun?

A. @ A Changing Life said...

Any news?

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