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Sunday, August 30, 2009

Storage Tears


I'm expecting a call any minute now. Someone who will throw me a few bones for the contents of my storage unit. Less than 24 hours ago I went through my stuff, and made sure to grab any thing that could be read by strangers. I left the china that had sentimental value. The crystal given as wedding gifts. China my dad gave me. Lastly, if they could speak what stories they would tell: My infamous costumes worn back in the day on public television.

It was my dream back then to store my costumes, for one day I knew I would have a daughter who would play dress up in them, and later wear them for Halloween parties.

But, I learned just over a year ago that material possessions can be taken away from you and it is better to not have emotional attachments to "things". Easier said than done. But I am following through with it.

Goodbye to my past- no more emotional ties to you- someone else can pick you up, dust you off and make a buck or a new memory off you.

I'm looking forward now. In this present moment I have no way of keeping you safe, I can't take care of you properly, I am not a good owner for you material possessions.

Good bye to my storage unit neighbor. How you manage to hold on to your treasures for almost ten years now at $100.00 a month, I am a bit envious- but I still question what could possibly be so valuable to keep it locked up somewhere and hidden in a box all these years.


As for me, all I want to keep are the secrets I wrote down in countless journals, and the evidence in old photographs that captured a young women who never imagined a day like this would come.

The last "possession" that will continue on with me in the present is my friendly childhood doll. She is torn, worn, and battered but filled with hours of imagination and emotional relief when I was growing up.

She was a lot like me, one of a kind....Smurfette.

14 comments:

Maureen said...

Good for you - getting rid of all the things you no longer need...

corrin said...

The older I get, the fewer things I need. Just like you, I'm letting go.

Maureen said...

I've been somewhat of a pack rat over the years- mostly due to relocating. It's hard for me to throw things away but I have noticed it's getting easier with time. I like nice memories but try to live a simpler life when possible!

Barbara Rae said...

Good for you! I'm sure it was not an easy choice to make, or to do!

Sadie said...

Wow - that is so brave of you! I'm such a pack-rat. I've thrown a lot away over the years, but I'm still holding onto a lot of sentimentals for some reason. I only look at them maybe once every two years or so.

Karen said...

I am not sure I could do this.

Diane Scott said...

Whatever you do go through it one more time because you KNOW something you leave behind is going to show up on the Antiques Roadshow and be worth $100,000 - I swear the stuff I just left behind (and yes I have tons of "junk" right now), but some of what I left is worth money now. So take one more backward look, and if you can have stuff appraised! I understand the moving on, but there just might be those things in there that could make a world of difference - yes financially. Money is good not evil :)

ALS of Nevada said...

Good for you! Less stuff is a good thing!

Linda said...

I know it is hard and it all has a history but you are doing the right thing! Hooray!

ConnieFoggles said...

You're going to be so happy when you have that extra money in your pocket. I hope you save it away and spend it something special at the end of 6 months or so.

Cady said...

We are working on purging our storage room too. We have so many things, and I'm sure we don't need most of them.

Maureen said...

You should feel good about yourself!

Emily Veinglory: said...

Well done,a few keepsakes is enough.

Brad said...

Figured I'd come see a bit of the history behind your most recent post.

Sounds like you've been through some pain - lots of pain - but I hope you're healing and able to move forward effectively.

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