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Saturday, June 21, 2008

Something that is ALL mine!


Being a new stay at home mom- I struggled with an identity crises. For a long time I felt as if I had nothing to contribute to our family because I was not bringing home a check. My husband- sadly did not give me an allowance and pretty much said I was not an equal, because I was not working. He did not see me being a full time mom, house cleaner and wife as important as his job- being a pilot. Even though we both agreed I would be a stay at home mom.

Needless to say- my self esteem plummeted. I felt so alone and I lost confidence in myself. My husband did not offer me much emotional support, always bringing up how I should clean better and such.

Sadly, our marriage failed- he filed for divorce instead of accepting his role in our problems- (I always said it takes two)

He wanted a step-ford wife- and I wanted an identity and emotional support from him.

It will be a year in August that we have been separated, the divorce is final at the end of July- although I am still grieving our broken marriage, I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel!

I have been practicing the law of attraction for over a year now- and spending a lot of time working on myself.

I can't express enough how much working online has helped me personally! It may not seem important, but I have met some great women who can relate to me- and I have been making extra money too.

I consider doing these surveys and paid to click programs ALL mine. I finally have something I can do from home, and I am getting paid! I am proud of myself for not giving up on my dreams- I did for a while. Even though doing these surveys and working on referrals might seem there is little to be gained from it. I know I have gained a lot: Money.... Friendship..... a place just for me.... and an identity. Most importantly I have regained my self esteem while earning a living.

What's more than that.... I have extremely good news I will post soon.  How working on my focus board and using the law of attraction is changing my life!

I'm so excited, motivated, and happy!
All thanks to not giving up and trying new things like this blog!

Follow your bliss.

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